Life as it is.

Hey you beautiful creatures ,

I just wanted to update you guys on everything and I mean EVERYTHING.

I've been going through a roller coaster of emotions lately and it hasn't been a pleasant ride. I often think I'm alone in this gigantic pool of people, if you know what I mean.  I am so caught up in all these pathetic immature drama that I often forget who I really am and since I've started this blog, I'm slowly finding myself again.

In a world wind of clustered memories, I find myself stuck.Reminiscing on memories that shouldn't even be in my head but it just keeps on playing like a broken record. I don't know how to feel anymore. People seem to pity me for the loss of my dad but honestly, cut the crap. People who I stopped talking to , all of a sudden care about me and telling me that if I needed anyone , I could talk to them. Really? Are you really telling me all this bullshit right now? I'm just sick of people thinking that they somehow need to be involve in my business. I get it , you want me to know that I'm not alone but talk to you? please.

I really am so lost for words. Sometimes I feel like no matter how loud my scream is , no one will hear me. I'm drowned in all this pain and I can't seem to push it away no matter how much I try. The '' friends'' who I thought were going to be here for me , aren't. It just really blows to feel like this , at a time like this.

Moving on to brighter things, I have really been trying to record a '' 20 questions'' video but I can't seem to find the correct video editor. I am a failure at all this ICT crap and also, my DSLR isn't with me so I don't think my upcoming video will be in HD. And and and, I've somehow become an ebay addict. There's just so many gorgeous handbags and shoes on there, to die for.

I hope you guys have had a good week and if you do need someone to talk to , I'm always here.
Signing off, love you guys :*